If I Loved You

If I Loved You

From: Carousel
By: Rodgers
Voice Type(s): Soprano

Melody
D ♭/C ♯
Full
D ♭/C ♯

Show Synopsis:
Julie and Carrie visit the town carousel one day, and Mrs. Mullin bans Julie from returning to the carousel when she lets Billy put his arm around her. Billy is fired for mocking Mrs. Mullin, and when he takes Julie for a drink, Julie is fired too since she is banned from being out late at night. A few months later, Julie tells Carrie that her new husband Billy has hit her, and then Billy and his friend Jigger make fun of Julie and Carrie's fiance Enoch. Julie tells Billy that she is pregnant, and Billy is concerned about finances, so he joins in on a robbery Jigger has organized. Enoch dumps Carrie at the town clambake when he thinks she's flirting with Jigger, and Julie begs Billy to not go on the robbery. The robbery fails, Billy dies, and the reunited Carrie and Enoch try to console Julie. Billy's spirit meets the Starkeeper who tells Billy that he can return to Earth for a single day fifteen years after his death to perform good deeds and redeem himself to get to heaven. Billy's daughter Louise is ostracized in their town, Carrie and Enoch are happy and wealthy, and their youngest son Enoch Jr. wants to marry Louise. Louise wants to run away and join an acting troupe, and they get into a fight. Billy gives Louise a star he stole from the heavens, pretending to be a friend of her deceased father, and when Louise tells Julie what happened, she has a feeling it is Billy speaking from beyond the grave. Billy goes to Louise's high school graduation and tries to convince her to reach out to other people so that she will not have to be a lonely outcast. Billy tells Julie that he loves her and finally goes to heaven.	

Character:
Billy Bigelow, a young handsome man who works as a barker at the town carousel; acts rashly and does not respect Julie, but would love to be a good father to his daughter. Julie Jordan, a millworker in her 20s unsure of her feelings for Billy but sure that she trusts him.

Song Context:
Billy and Julie have both been fired from their jobs for showing their feelings for each other, and they try to imagine what their lives would be like if they had each other and no other people passing judgments on their love for each other.	

Fun Facts:
1) This musical is based on the play Liliom by Ferenc Molnár. 
2) The nine minutes of dialogue and music that make up "the bench scene" of this song are considered one of the most perfect love scenes in musical theatre, where Billy and Julie evolve from being complete strangers to lovers. 
3) John Raitt originated the role of Billy on Broadway after playing Curly in the national tour of Oklahoma, another Rodgers and Hammerstein musical.
    

"JULIE
But somehow I can see
Just exactly how I'd be-

If I loved you,
Time and again I would try to say
All I'd want you to know.
If I loved you,
Words wouldn't come in an easy way
Round in circles I'd go!
Longin' to tell you,
But afraid and shy,
I'd let my golden chances pass me by!
Soon you'd leave me,
Off you would go in the mist of day,
Never, never to know how I loved you
If I loved you.

BILLY
Well, anyway, you mean you don't love me.
That's what you said, isn't it?

JULIE
Yes!
I can smell 'em, can you, ah? 
The blossoms. The wind brings 'em down!

BILLY
There ain't much wind tonight... Hardly any.
You can't hear a sound, not the turn of a leaf
Nor the fall of a wave hittin' the sand.
The tide's creepin' up on the beach like a thief,
Afraid to be caught stealin' the land!
On a night like this I start to wonder
What life is all about.

JULIE
And I always say two heads are better than one to
figure it out.

BILLY (spoken)
I don't need you, I don't need anybody helpin' me.
Well, I got it figured out for myself.
We're not important. What are we?
A couple o' specks with nothin'
Look up there...

(sung)
There's a hell of a lotta stars in the sky,
And the sky's so big the sea looks small,
And two little people, you and I
We don't count at all.

(spoken)
You're a funny kid, you know?
I don't remember meetin' a girl like you.
Hey, you're tryin' to get me to marry you?

JULIE (spoken)
No!

BILLY (spoken)
Then what's puttin' into my head, babe?
You're diff'rent, alright! I know what it is...
You have doped me with that little kid's face, right?
You've adjusted me!
I wonder what it'd be like...

JULIE (spoken)
What?

BILLY (spoken)
Nothin'. 
No, I know what it'd be like.
It'd be awful! I can just see myself-
(sung)
Kinda scrawny, and pale
Picking at my food,
And love-sick like any other guy.
I'd throw away my sweater, and dress up like a dude
In a dicky and a collar and a tie.
If I loved you.

JULIE (spoken)
But you don't!

BILLY (spoken)
No, I don't!
(sung)
But somehow I can see
Just exactly how I'd be
If I loved you.
Time and again I would try to say
All I'd want you to know.
If I loved you,
Words wouldn't come in an easy way -
Round in circles I'd go!
Longin' to tell you,
But afraid and shy
I'd let my golden chances pass me by!
Soon you'd leave me,
Off you would go in the mist of day,
Never, never to know
How I loved you
If I loved you."